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Horrible day. So much to catch up on, but my brain’s too dumb to do so. Even worse is my midterm score for discrete mathematics, an awful 50 despite giving everything I had for it. Everyone else except this one guy got good scores. Lecturer calculated and told us that a good score on that particular would guarantee a final grade of A. Fuck off. I know I’m retarded. I know I’m dumber than everyone else. But it’s not my choice to be like that! I want to understand concepts as effortlessly as the rest of you! Oh, but alas, I’m forced to live with this shit of a brain that can’t memorize for its own good, can’t understand anything, not even fucking common sense! I fucking hate myself. I just want to start over.